Already Gone

At the moment a lot emotions are going through my system

I feel annoyed.

I feel frustrated.

I feel used.

I feel determined.

I feel unmotivated.

I feel relaxed.

I feel alone.

I feel happy.

There is so much out in this world and I haven't experienced any of it. But why is that when one moment or one person changes you to stop doing what you believe in effect your dreams or hopes. Despite all the break-ups that has happened in 2009 within my social circle. It makes me wonder..

why we stay in a long term relationship at a young age?

why we tell the person we love them and we would be there for them forever? But consciously we say it to make them feel happy or just satisfied.

what is love at a young age?

why are the happy moments broken when you know you were the happiest?

what makes love so strong that it's hard to move on?

why does our body stop being it's normal self when the heart is broken?

I know 7 months on from the break-up. 

I'm still questioning Why?

I'm still thinking was ever good enough for you. 

I'm still wanting an apology. 

I'm still wanting that " sorry"and answers.

But just thinking about You and Me. 

And I say this with no regrets. 

I'm glad that you broke my heart.

But i still feel you. And what I feel is nothing for you.

You will know when you find your true love if it has been broken time after time... 

Your love, your soul, your partner for life, is someone that will not break you but will want to build you to its best with no regrets. Once someone has broken you it means that there's nothing for them to see the best within you. We fall inlove, we have lust but when we realise that certain *spark* its when I will certainly let myself go again just for that one person. But right now my faith for love is limited. Its the dreams that I have on my mind that's stopping me from being inlove. Therefore, I think I need to explore within me. 

Life is a stepping stone and everything takes time.

But to close the Chapter this is what I say to You.

I'm already gone...