Q & A

Q: When was your first love? 

My first love was when I was 16 years old.

Q: What was the taste of you first kiss? 

My first kiss was very very normal. Though I remember myself giving a selection of lip gloss to choose from. It was either peach or strawberry. How dorky?

Q: Have you ever fell in love at first sight? 

Yes, I did in fact. My first love was love at first sight. I couldn't stop thinking about him cause he was just to cute.

Q: Where is your favorite part of your body? 

My favourite part would be my stomach. I work so hard to get them curves and tones in line. I very much dislike abs.

Q: What is your favorite lipstick and nail polish color? 
My favourite lipstick colour is nude or baby pink by YSL. My nail polish that I'm totally obsessed with is Black by O.P.I

Q: What was your precious fairy story when you were a kid? 

I really enjoyed reading "The Secret Garden", the novel did take me away. Although, I was a Cinderella fan.

Q: Who are your favorite photographer, movie director, and artist? 

My fav photographer hrmn... I honestly don't know much about photography but Andy Warhol? is he included. Movie Director? I really don't know much about film though, I like all movies that are romantic? and my favourite all time artist is Seurat and Renoir.

Q: What movie character do you sympathize with? 
The movie character I sympathize with is basically, Rebecca Bloomwood from Confessions of a Shop-a-holic.

Q: When do you feel happy? 
When I purchase a pair of new shoes every week.

Q: You can spend the last supper with somebody you admire. Who do you choose? 
I choose all of my girlfriends. It'll be good and fun though, can i invite my parents?

Q: What was the most unforgettable job you have done?

I had to an internship for Little Hero and i pretty much liked styling for the Russh shoot. It was fun, selecting clothes!

Q: If you can marry with a designer, who would you want to marry with? 

I would love to marry Alexander McQueen. Everyday, would be so special wearing the extravagant clothing all day long.

Ke$ha

Are men becoming womanly?

Before I head out for another night out with my girl. I will blog. 

This morning when walking up to Central Station, with a coffee in my hand. Viv and I spoke about past relationships. Yes! I know my blog entries have currently been about my state of mind on relationships though, I am facing some dilemma's on my own emotions. Strong girl I am, I have to say "whatever! to ya brutha!" ( the westie's slang language is coming out of me).

Ok. Continuing on my story, ( yes, Viv to you I do have multiple points in my conversations) Viv and I were just evaluating on her past love and we think that he wasn't man enough. Today, us women face very emotional and self- centered men that cannot deal with their own emotions. I think they are just simply to complicated. Generation Y men are just too relied upon their parents and their male peers. This meaning, that they cannot make their own decisions or become manly enough to portray their grounds.  

Even the most mature and eldest male that us girls have put up with or even socialised with are simply just hard to read or understand? 

What ever happened to the man that was just straight off blunt and wanted what they want. Have men really changed from the past to the future? 

I understand that me and Viv are just too young and were just experimenting or learning to a degree or so. Although, I still think they are complicated even though an opportunity is there. I think men just take life so damn seriously. Which, makes them emotionally unstable and confused. 

The End to complications and dramas. I just want to be left alone please. :)

I fancy you.

Before I go to bed on this Friday evening, I have indulged on watching a movie with the girls, beer and chocolate. 

I had added the extra calories for a reason. I saw him today, a very short glimpse of him and my heart dropped slash pounded.

I had wondered why it did? I know that its not love and its not about being heart broken. 

Is it because I haven't completed my mission?

or.

Is it that I truly have moved on from zee ex?

Well, I had found that fate works naturally, nothing is forced and nothing can be forced. Judging by my past experience.

Reading or Picking out "wish" cards at Borders, my life at the moment is matching what the cards are saying. Weird.

The girls say I am very infatuated though, I think its just me trying to figure out what I want in a lover or boyfriend? and then comparing it to past experiences. 

I am totally ready and I want to find someone greater than him. I express the fact, that I like him. Reason being, because he cares.

And I don't think its shameful for me to express that whether, it goes somewhere or not. 

I just feel I can like someone again and it feels good.  Though, Him is good. I don't need to be with him but him has influenced and revealed to me that you can find a connection after the heart has been broken. Called him and told him I saw him. Awkward.. don't know why.. although, it is yet to be discovered. 

And I want to say lastly, I fancy him. Though, friends it shall be I actually don't see myself with him?

To be continued... 

The City

Having to watch The City for an assessment on Design and Subculture, I enjoyed watching the "reality" T.V show very much.  Yes, yes I know I am addicted to these "umm.. and uh" programs e.g. The Hills and now The City, though I like the drama that all these young women go through. It's like having a snap of my world. Trust me, even my own workmate thinks I can make a hit reality series on my life. 

Boys, Fashion, Cat fights and the endless dilemmas on decisions, is a total reality program of  The Hills and The City. Ok! Dreaming much? Yes indeed.  I might be overly thinking about the situations I put myself in although, it's what life is about being messy! and I like it messy.

Moving along...

Recap: This whole week was meant to be  my Production week, when it means you have to be productive. Dah! meaning catching up on assessments and college related stuff or work. Not happening much?  Yes, indeed. 

Well, I've been working and just reading books which, keeps away from the trouble I get myself into. 

No news to share and no dramas this week. Although, I'm hitting down town to Laundry on Saturday night! 

Oh wait! Yes, yes!!! I do have news! I bought me self some shoes!!  I bought some sandals for summer cause it was a need not a want. One was an all leather animal printed sandal which, is my new pet, you can literally pat the sandal. And the other was just a leather black sandal with straps, a bit messy. Oh! I just love my shoes. I had also made a purchase of buying a silk jumpsuit, black, ofcourse! and that is all. 

Completed.

Obsession..

Women tend to obsess over a guy after a kiss, hug or any physical contact that has been made between them. It is a natural habit, that we do after our emotions have been twisted into a misleading interpretation from the opposite sex.  I have learnt that most men, do not obsess over a girl they always move on.  Unless your the exception.

Why do women obsess over a guy once they have received all the attention? 

Clearly, it shows ( through my own experience) that we love it and the attention leads to curiosity that has never been completely ended or the job hasnt been finished? Though, left to linger? Ok. How many of us just go for drinks and do not expect to hook up or even pick up. Well I'm surely one of them would happen 90% of the time. Men just want pussy. 

We overly read the signs and then we get ourselves trapped. Often it's hard to move on and then we start obsessing. 

Now the tables have been twisted and I've just ended my games that did screw the guys up the wall and then I would receive the karma back at me by being drawn into the guy. 

I have compared the many guys that I have met during this past year. Though, there is one that really made me happy. Way... back. My blog entry that has questioned about friendship? well my answer is Yes, I know the difference with friends and lovers. 

I have chosen to be a friend. I want to build upon it because this particular friend has made an influence and now I want to believe that love is out there and it will seek for me, unexpectedly. 

Lets just say that the love game has died. And I want to be the respectable girl again that has strong morals and values. I want to continue being who I am... the girl next door? 

A wise person told me this

It takes 7 months to get over a past love.

90 Days to get to know the person well enough. 

90 Days to physically get to know them.

Then you will love. 

You either continue the journey or not..

This is what I am going to believe in.

 

The teenage years

It's been a while.

Focusing on studies and working hard for the money, to indulge on my wants and needs expenses.

I have come to take some time off and commence on blogging.

With friends finishing up uni studies preeeeetty damn soon, I 'am excited to spend some of my days with my beautiful girls. It is what I' am truly looking forward to.

As I' am typing my thoughts and values up. My eyes are bound to close up and my mind would be ready to take me on for a dream session or journey. 

Walking with Charise to her brothers apartment, we cleared some thoughts out about relationships. It is clear that Charise has mentioned during the past, about her wanting to settle herself into a relationship though, I have to say that I'am wanting it too. 

I say this now "I want to be in a relationship." uh.. and breathe. I actually do, I feel that I am ready to move on and start a new fulfilling chapter that will continue on finding fate, my destiny or let me just say it in simple terms a soulmate? 

Although, I fear that my daily habits would be adjusted to fulfill that person's need or wants?  or commit? 

Ok. Clearly shows I' am now on a shopping spree to find that guy who is worth it to me. 

You know when you see the pair of shoes that you fell inlove with, your next action would be the decision making process. You question the shoes.. 

Is it worth it? 

Would it suit the clothes that I have in my wardrobe? 

Do you feel comfortable in them?

Is the size perfect for you? (not talking about the male anatomy here) hehe. 

This are the questions that would be running through my mind when it comes to checking off the criterias of the boys that I have known for a while, Are they or Are they not boyfriend material?

Now. I am not going to force myself in a relationship and officially stamp myself for an agreement to a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship. But it will take some time and a couple of dates, till I know I can change my daily routines for them.

I do not want to make the same mistakes, as I did during the past.

Moving along...

Weekend. Saturday night involved. Dancing to RnB slash Hip Hop in Red Room? 

It twas a good night when helping Charise to sober up. 

We both were wreckless girls wanting to have fun but where was the third masker teare?

she was at a dinner with her family indulging on a 10 course meal? so I have recalled? 

I could feel one was missing throughout the night but, she was there in spirit.

Arriving back home at 7 am in a Taxi after spending the night at the Meriton Service Apartment. 

OH MY GODFATHER?!? 

my parents weren't very pleased. 

Nods and forceful statements infront of my best friend Charise, they slept in the wrong side of the bed? 

haha

My face was not worried and not stressed. Though Charise was shocked. 

It's ok and it's alright!

We slept till 10.30 am and called up Vivian to tell her about the night.

4 hrs later we watched the Oc and it was a reminder  of the highschool days.

I fell asleep. And went for a walk. Thats when I hit into the beginning of this entry. 

Goodnight. I am going to sleep. 

I say Hi.

Highlights of Today:

1. Had my dad arrive back into Sydney, after a two holiday. And Yes! I did enjoy the moment of being "Daddy" Free.
2. Received a text message from the guy on Friday night. 
3. My lecturer for the Design and Sub class had lost his laptop which, meant no presentation though, marks would be based on essays only. Very disappointed, why? cause I had felt that it would be an awesome subculture to present on (socialites) indicating on assignment topic. 
4. Had accomplished the long craving of Sushi.
5. Completed watching Confessions of a Shop-a-holic. Plus recording some heart-felting quotes from the movie that has a fond relationship with me.